Freedom!!!

Every little drop drenched me from head to toe,
As the sky broke on me like an all time foe,
With nothing above me I stood there helpless,
You not around, but a Strange sense of freedom had set in,
your voice still in my head, could hear every sound.
A long rattling had set in my head, Unable to recognize,
lost in some delusion, unbearable was the pain,
Identity, is what I was looking for?
Your face all around, but not a bit of mine for sure.
As the smoke from the pot filled my empty brain,
A sense of euphoria had set in and I stopped to blame,
The unseen shackles broke loose
As I screamed to get noticed, not your shadow, for sure
The every notes my guitar screeched,
The love song gone bad, but who cares? Not me!!!
As I touched my heart, blood spilled all over,
By the door way, I looked through the window longing for a shower.
All the pain begins to feel like pleasure
With no more tears to make a sea in desert,
Every memory like a pinch of salt on my wound
But I can't help it ended up saying thank you,
I am just a fool always having my heart set on you,
Till the time you started changing the rules,
But I kept on chasing the sole of your shoes,
Because I am a fool, had set my life and moments only for you,
I leave again because I was waiting in vain,
If I say my heart is sore, sounds like a cheap metaphor,
So I won't repeat, will set out once more.
Searching for love as I can't take this pain any more.

The Search!!!

With the sunshine tucked aside as I walked past the green stretch, my feet got kissed and the gentle breeze wrapped my soul. My longing soul looked past the green vastness to the extent where it met the blue serenity, and I wondered in such a big world where can I find my love. Wide eyed, as I captured the beauty which lay before me my heart kept beating with excitement and prediction that, its not far.

But I walked past many lands, sailed through the seven seas, and my search for eternal love continued. Chuckle of the birds matched the trickle of the streams as occasional drizzle washed away all my inhibition. Little tired, gathered my strength and brushed aside any thoughts of uncertainty....I moved on.

Passing the meandering path across the valley, every bend gifted me a beautiful sight, as if the entire world has conspired to make me move till I find my Love. The surprises brought in the smile on my face, but some where deep down inthe heart asmall patch of sadness kept brewing!!!
Then I met the Happy Couple, seeing their togetherness and undying love for each other, I felt as if the Time has stopped for a moment to celebrate their love. As I bid adieus to them, the desperation in me just grew more and I felt the pain ripping apart my heart, my soul. Will I really find my love? But......I moved on.

I searched through many faces, I searched through many hearts....but everytime I missed the extra beat of my heart, everytime I missed the glow in myeyes, everytime I missed the tremble in my body....It was like a closed door behind which lay my happiness, but I never had the key!!! The Frustration kept pulling me down and I ended up asking is Love so impossible?

But then I remembered the happy couple, I remembered the sun drenched green stretch where the love birds sang a song while the flowers bloomed to declare the arrival of spring. I remembered the bunch of village belle as they sang and danced their way back home, with happiness written all over their face. With happiness somuch in abundance how can be Love so far.....I moved on.

The Sun too called it a day as it vanished behind the red clouds. Then I entered another wonderland, as the moonlight got melted in the water while thousand stars shown on me. Longing grew more as I took refuse under the dark sky. As I looked up I got lost in the vastness. Followed the stars and drew my imagination, being lit by thousand twinkles. The gentle start ended up in madness as I scribbled across thesky. My thoughts did a rampage on the entire black board as they danced along with the stars.

Slowly the thoughts got blurred as I closed my eyes laying there under the gentle touch of the breeze and a little hope flickering inside that tomorrow will be a new day when I will find my love.......

A LOVE SONG – STRANDED
I closed the door behind me.
I saw the world waiting outside.
I realized I was awake and back
From where I had gone with my dreams.
The clutter, the pauses – these brought me Back to the crowd,
And time ran past – a slow song,
Before I walked back, the day caught me,
In its arms and pushed me ahead Into the ring.
I faltered my steps,
But I got on - I was ready for the day.
Without you beside me, Without you holding me.
I reached my door and saw my soul lying all alone, sleeping.
One could, almost see the sadness across him.
I don't want to wake up for good – I don't want to leave my perfect world.
You say what is it with the dreams
After all it will end some time and that how can you hold it for ever
Its a dream after all and I say its fine
Its a dream for sure but It is my world
My thoughts my desires you know.
Nobody to question, nobody to stop me
My life is the very way I wanted it to be.
Nobody to question my boundless love for you
Nobody to question my desperation too
Nobody to ask even how and why - It may be unreal
But it is my world And it is all for you.