The hand that lead me to death....

Just hold me there , don’t let me loose,
I have held those hands for so long, those hands kept me up,
Scared of falling beating the dust, hurt and all bruised
But as time passed away the indifference set in making it just a bind,
A bind just for the sake of it but not the one which once held two souls,
Realizing the unknown fear I held the hands stronger,
Blazing sun burned me down as I walked through the barren land,
Still with the hope to find my heaven at the end of the treacherous track,
As the bleeding foot steps followed me I kept moving on as the sand creped in my skin,
I looked in your eyes and saw the heaven not far away.
Seeing what I had longed for so long in your eyes,
I ignored all the uncertainities, all the difficulties and moved on.
My thirsty soul squimmered in pain as I looked at you,
With a blank stare you looked away
as you talked about all the interesting things which lie ahead.
But still held my hand and my tired bruised legs took the next step.
Then finally came heaven and, surprised, I looked around,
Prosperity and gaiety had lit up the sky and could hear laughter all abound,
Happy and beautiful souls smiled at us as we moved ahead,
Looking for the abode for which we crossed all the lands.
As my tired eyes kept looking for the home, your all excited self looked around
The glint in your eyes and the smile attracted all around,
As time passed away you got lost in the crowd
And I lost the hand which I held so long to reach the dream, to reach the heaven.
Tired feet revolted, my eyes, tired, left my side, as I roamed around the busy street,
I fell, now and then, took shelter in a shack to heal my bruise,
But still had a hope to find you and hold that hand once again.
Occasional rain drenched my soul to pick up all the strength to move on,
The water seeped in making my longing for you even stronger
Occasional kind souls gave their hand to help me be on my feet,
But, still in pride, I refused as I declare about the hand I once held.
Then the news struck me one fine day that now you are the One!!!
Everybody wanted to be with you, everybody wanted to be a part of your life,
Enough accomplices to look after you and your need, but not my love
Enough accomplices to splurge prosperity, but not my commitment,
I stood at the end of the crowd as my heart cried silently,
I realized that the dream what you showed me was nothing but a mirage.
Lost in the game I realized what a fool I had been,
Blamed myself and questioned my ability as I asked myself,
Giving up all in Love, how could I do that mistake?
Trusting someone and commit my life, how could I do that mistake,
All said and done realizing my mistake, The reality dawned on me,
As I looked around seeing all the light, all the gaiety, all the smile,
But all seems to be so fake and unreal as I tried touching them,
My desire to feel them got reflected back, shattering my Dreams.
I bid you my last adieus from far behind the crowd
Which got lost somewhere, as you looked away busy being part the crowd.
I left the door and saw the rough spread of never ending barren land,
Which I once crossed holding your hand, and I am back there again.
With no defense by my side, being lost my battle,
the sun rose on me even stronger, The hot wind blew even harder,
I kept questioning my existence, after loosing my love,
As the sense of defeat spread from my heart to every inch of my body,
Slowly my dragging feet stopped, the bruises which were healed opened up,
Eyes, which once appreciated your beauty, blinded by the raging sun, closed,
thinking how near is the end, as few drops rolled down my freckled skin.
Everytime I fell, picked up myself, questioning that was it all worth giving up?
Fought so hard that, I almost lost my identity,
but the reality settled down as the last rays of the sun got lost in the far sky.
My motionless body lay on the soil as thousand stars shown on me,
Lifted my soul above the mortality and showed me the way.
The wind caressed my dead body in an attempt to wash away all the dust
To prepare the end, to celebrate the end of my life, death of my love.